• Artist: Realistikk
  • Title: Beautiful
  • Genre: Hip Hop - Experimental/Alternative
  • Mood: Down/Dark/Melancholic
  • Speed: Medium (78-95)
  • Instruments: Strings, Percussion, Loops/Samples, Horns/Woodwinds/Brass, All Other, Bass
  • Track type: Lyric - Full Length
  • Date added: 1/5/2012
  • Lyric themes: Struggle Hardship, Low Self-Worth, Feminism Girl Power, Loneliness, Conformity, Suicide
  • Lyrics: Every single day i feel so disgusting Seems my body is the topic everyone’s discussing and i can’t take no more it gets redundant so im going to take charge man im gonna do something lookin in the mirror and im lookin so hurt so i took diet pills but that junk didnt work so i went on a diet so id fit into my shirts but im losin control every day waxin worse skip meals here and there no one knew no one cared lost a few pounds, also lost a few hairs but im gettin kind of weak i find it hard to sleep almost at my peak, ill start eatin next week--- and im still here struggling thinking that im nothin and wishin i wish dead so i wouldnt be sufferin grades slippin daily teachers thinking im dyslexic i cant face the fact that im really anorexic parents wish they knew but they got no clue tell my friends i eat at home and my mom i eat at school 3 months go by and im looking real fly went from a size 12 down to a size 5 and im big pimpin getting numbers from the guys who used to pass me by laughin at my big thighs but im not good enough man im not even close cuz i still look big when i put on my clothes wander like a gypsy everyday im feeling tipsy feelin all alone even though my friends are with me self esteem is gone hidin food from my mom... when i look in the mirror all i see's a fat slob really got a prob gettin worse day by day always cuttin class fainting in the hallway and nobody knows what exactly that im doin perfection is the ruin that im secretely pursuin and id give anything to be thin for one night cuz id rather look good then to really feel right so maybe i can eat now, i almost met my goal and this starvation mode is really gettin old so i started eating normal til i felt the guilt like sin throwup in the toilet vomit drippin down my chin-- now im feeling really proud and the high sets in something that im good at, something i can finally win my girls say i look sick but theyre just really jealous cuz im the one now who's gettin all the fellas and its been 5 months since i had a real meal hands are always shakin and im starting to reveal broken veins on my face that i have to conceal i cant even feel ..nothing even seems real but..now i cant stop and damn i wish i could why's my whole life perception based on lookin good? i dont know why..im walking in the negative stress heart beatin' rapidly, nervous- holdin on my chest gone way too far cant even help myself but i'm too fulla pride to ask for help 8 months and 2 days and im wastin away i used to be tan, now a pastier shade face like skeletor --- throat is feelin hella sore like 2 blocks away from deaths hellish door it's the end of my rope and i can't take no more my mom finds me laying head down on my floor now im in the hospital in a coma almost gone not sure where i am but somethin's really wrong family all screamin why cant we get thru to you? dr. checkin blood levels pushing on my cuticles heart rate's unusual i'm past pharmaceuticals i hear them cryin hard and plannin on my funeral pullin out my plug they all agree, its mutual thinkin all i ever wanted was to be beautiful.....
  • Keywords: sad, rap, Bass, Brass

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